Look, at the beginning, maybe it was a game for me. Now, I’m not so sure. And thanks to my “friend” who said i was on the losing side, I’m determined to get my position back in the game. I won’t give in to this. I can’t. Because if I do, things will get horrible. I will get hurt. BADLY. But I honestly don’t know where I stand.

Especially now that I find him more and more amazingly attractive each and everyday. I don’t think I want to let go. At first I thought, that I was too good for him. That “oh, he’s just some guy I can fool around with” (no pun intended, didn’t mean anything like sex). I thought I could be mean.

Post, to be continued.

(Source: nickicks619)